I was tagged by my main @missylisha 
1. I am full Lebanese. 
2. My favourite colour is lavender and my favourite season is autumn🍂 
3. I have anxiety and suffer from attacks regularly. 
4. I read anything and everything and often spend full days doing nothing but finishing a good book
5. I write just as much as I read. Novels, short stories, songs, letters… It’s a stress reliever for me and it helps me train my brain to be more creative. 
6. I can speak 4 languages fluently including various dialects. English, French, Arabic, Spanish. 
7. Vans are the only things I wear. I’ve got about 5 pairs and plan on getting more. 
8. Hearing people laugh or seeing people smile is the reason I live. 
9. I am obsessed with all things British. The accent always gets mixed into my conversations somehow. 
10. I have 5 people in my life that I can never imagine being able to live without. With @missylisha and @winnsarah at the top of this list. 
11. My biggest fear is losing the people I love and dying in my sleep.
12. Adele will always be my therapy music. 
13. I spent 3 years of my life being bullied and I feel that because of those experiences I’m a stronger person today. 
14. It irritates me IMMENSELY when people chose to insult something that I—or anyone for that matter—like (And yes I am referring to every single person that has “lost respect for me” or insulted me because I said I like Harry Styles and One Direction) or bash on MY OWN PERSONAL opinions. I can never wrap my head around the reason why my life choices or preferences should be of any concern to the people insulting me. 
15. I act like a mom All. The bloody. Time. SORRY 😥
16. There are about a dozen things I wish I could change about myself but don’t have the determination to start. 
17.  I have an unexplainable hate for Taylor Swift. But I don’t go around hating her fans. 
18. A lot of the time, simply seeing a familiar face can brighten up my whole day!
19. I am hopelessly and madly in love with Christian Grey, Gideon Cross, Jesse Ward and Trent Maddox. 
20. I have a cross tattoo on the back of my neck and I plan on getting my second in the next few weeks and a third sometime next year.

Untitled #133 by angieiskaraky featuring beer glasses

I need someone to rant to and I feel like this is the best place to do it. 

So, school started again a couple of weeks ago and obviously, being the overthinker that I am, I began brainstorming what the next few years of my life would look like. 

I graduate in 2 years (holy shit!) and I love the Uni life, but sometimes it terrifies me. Ever since sophmore year of high school, I’ve been creating scenarios and writing stories as to how amazing my life would be once I go to University, and honetsly, it’s not at all what I imagined. Of course there comes freedom and fun but sometimes I hate it. I hate that choices are not made for me like they were in high school; I hate how the so-called ‘fun’ is just a bunch of frat parties where people act like dumber versions of themselves from highschool. I avoided going to highschool parties for a reason and even in Uni, I’m doing the same thing. 

It terrifies me to think that in a couple of years I will be forced to take reality by the horns and find myself a job, a house, a spouse…On the one hand, I think about it and I get extremely excited to finally start living my life. I’m excited to rent out a penthouse with my best friend and decorate it according to the season and cook dinner every night, and have wine and cheese nights, and go on dates and be my own boss at work, and find myself the perfect man (I watch too many youtube videos and read one too many books); but on the other hand, I’ve been in school my whole life and it’s the only I know. What if I don’t find a good enough job and can’t pay for my rent? Or realize that I hate my job, or never find someone who wants to spend the rest of their life loving me like I love them?

It just scares me to think that I need to be ready for all of this, when I’m not even close right now.


Music playlist “gym” has zero plays.
- Six Word Story by Pien Pouwels  (via oceanflowerbird)